Pieces of Me

A little glimpse into the heart of me. I thought I might take a break from the past and share a little of the present. I have been ruminating on this quite often lately……the “now”, taking this moment, experiencing it, enjoying it. As I have shared with you already, my husband works in the film industry, he is a stunt performer, rigger, coordinator. We travel about 60% of the year. Currently we are in England. A small village outside of north London called Harefield. Its historic and quaint, picturesque but cold. I miss my cozy home, my daughters, my grandson. I miss the warm weather and wearing slippers everyday (thats Hawaii slippers, not the fuzzy kind). I am suffering from “one of those mornings” when I ask myself, “did we do the right thing?”. Was moving away from a steady business, friends like family, and a safe island bubble the “right” choice? Then….I receive a gentle reminder…the only “right” choice is the choice to abide in Christ, to fall humbly at his feet, surrender myself, my day, my thoughts, my hopes, my desires, my marriage, and my dreams, and trust that THIS is the day that the Lord has made, I WILL rejoice and be glad! I am whole because the Great Physicians hands meticulously and patiently mended me together again, I am happy because my joy is found in freedom, I am hopeful because my eternity is secure, I am confident because the King of the world has called me his daughter. This life is a treasure, our experiences are gifts, our hardships are lessons, and our pain breeds wisdom.

These “pieces” of my heart, all play parts within the story of my life, and remind me to find joy in the present day. My daughters and son teach me how to be a mother, to love someone beyond myself to make a decision based on anothers feelings and desires, not my own. The two women in the last picture titled, “longest and dearest friends” have been with me since childhood and there isn’t one thing that they do not know about me…… the good… and the ugly, and they still call me friend. My sister has shown me a loyalty and steadfastness in relationships and commitments that I would never know without her. The pic titled “a favorite person of mine” has held my hands and prayed over me when I was struggling, is willing to go out of her way to see me, writes me notes and mails them…….. Yes!!!…. true story actually puts a stamp on an envelope and puts it in the mailbox!!! hahaha. The picture titled “Ohana”, these women are my family in Hawaii and I trust them with my secrets, with the things that are hard to say out loud, with my marriage, with my kids. My mom is in the pic titled “buddys” and she is responsible for my security and confidence, she taught me how to take risks and adventure through life, she made my world a world of fun and opportunity. And finally “commitment” thats “him” thats the man that gave it all up for a chance at a life with a 27 year old broken hearted, hot mess, a little bit crazy, mother of three, who needed to be given another chance at love. He holds my heart, he has earned my trust, he has my respect and admiration, he is the love of my life and I will follow him wherever he will go. Thank you Lord Jesus for these “pieces” of me, each one hand picked by you to be a part of my story, to be a part of the reason that I believe “This, today, is the day the Lord has made, today, right now, I will CHOOSE to rejoice and be glad!”